How many times that we wished to have a happy ever after ? Me a million times its always what I think of everyday.
I convinced myself that life will go on without love. I will be okay and happy being single.
When you were hurt a dozen of times you get traumatized and thinking you can never love again.
But each day my mind my heart and my soul has this need to search for one true love. They said good things happen to those who wait. But I think I have been waiting for ages. How long should I wait? A lot of questions is in my mind.
I pathetically think that there is really something wrong with me. I guess that I am just so hooked with love and it frustrates me. I know what I want and tried to get what I want but I can't just have it.
Yes, right now am seeing someone but I don't feel assured that with him it will be a happy everafter. It may be too early for me to conclude that he might be the one . But one is for sure am definitely taking him seriously.
Just crossing my fingers and hoping this would work. I got tired of dating new guy. I am not into the dating game anymore. Right now what I want is a substantial relationship. And I pray that what he wants from me too.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
Monday OFF
Its been awhile that I have expressed my thoughts throught writing.
Funny , before all I can do is write. I always had my feelings hidden its always a close book.
Anger, sadness, happiness, anxiety, madness etc..... I can't just show it nor to tell someone what I felt. They said I always wear this poker face. But not anymore, I little by little am opening up. Well guess right now am someone I never expected to be.
People at work, loves to hear what i say. I mean they think am funny and they will miss me if Ill transfer to a new management. It made me feel good that I mean something to someone.
I may not be lucky in love but am well loved by the poeple around me.
I always think that life well be so sad and lonely when you dont have a boyfriend , a lover, a special friend. Guess am wrong, there are a lot of things in this world that can make you truly happy. You just have to appreciate whats in front of you. Open your eyes and embrace what you have. I don't really have to look any further and stress my self to find what is missing in my life.
Funny , before all I can do is write. I always had my feelings hidden its always a close book.
Anger, sadness, happiness, anxiety, madness etc..... I can't just show it nor to tell someone what I felt. They said I always wear this poker face. But not anymore, I little by little am opening up. Well guess right now am someone I never expected to be.
People at work, loves to hear what i say. I mean they think am funny and they will miss me if Ill transfer to a new management. It made me feel good that I mean something to someone.
I may not be lucky in love but am well loved by the poeple around me.
I always think that life well be so sad and lonely when you dont have a boyfriend , a lover, a special friend. Guess am wrong, there are a lot of things in this world that can make you truly happy. You just have to appreciate whats in front of you. Open your eyes and embrace what you have. I don't really have to look any further and stress my self to find what is missing in my life.
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