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Everything seems so normal tonite. I am bored, dont feel like eating , dont want to do anything either. It is Father's Day today and I get the chance to greet my stepfather. I was hesitant to send him a text coz we never talk. We never have a father-daugther relationship. He was so distant to me and so I am to him. I am glad when he responded and said thanks. I felt so strange and it is new for me. I know I have been away from my family for a long time. I don't even know what will I do when ill see them again. I miss them yes but am okay being away from them. I am enjoying my freedom, I like it when no onel dictates me in my life. I can do what I want, I dont have to answer anyone.

But the feeling is still empty, I like what I am in right now. Single, no pressure...theres nothing much to think about just work and my finances. Of course theres no day that I didnt think about my family. They're my inspiration. I am working to help me and them. I can't describe what I feel about me being alone, independent and the nothingness. Ive been always like this I dont know when will this stop. Its really tiring, I want a change, I want a fresh air to breath.
But I dont know where to start and how to get rid of this emptiness. I want to fill my life with just lil bit of everything.