When It Rains, It Pours

Do you believe in bad luck?? Well me, I am out of luck. Lately these days, things were really bad for me. I mean problems at work, family issues, lovelife, sexlife, friendship, health.. GEEEEEEEEEEEESSSH
But anyway I am staying positive. Am giving little emphasis about the badness. It works I mean seeing something good everyday will help you to move on. It is easily get discouraged if you keep thinking that you are carrying the world. ME I'll let someone carry it for me. I am not saying that I no longer take any responsibility. Well I'll just deal anything systematically. I don't if I can really do it. But I'll do my best.

I wish for wellness!

I am in a limbo right now, I might be losing my job, am not sure, but I really have a bad feelings about my work status. I think I will be terminated anytime soon, I wasn't able to go to work for three days, and I don't why can't anyone let me know what is my current status. I don't what God is planning for me, But I am hoping if I lose this job hopefully not this week am hoping next month. I will be ready for the lose. I am going to see Jersey today, hope she knows about my status, I no longer want any surprises, especially if its a bad news. I wish things will be better. I am promising that I'll make it up later. I can't really make a better decision for myself. I am always unsure, well anyway life cant give any security at all. It is possible that everything can be taken away from in just a snap. Well if I will lose my job, there must be a good reason.
Another reason why am so feeling down today, theres no way for you to have good friends who will always be there for you. I realized that you can never depend on anyone else. I feel so bad and I have done bad as well. I just wish I can change, change for a better. I know I have a lot of things to consider. I always have short term goal, probably thats why I never have anything long lasting. I just wish I can do something that will make me proud about myself.

Slow Night

It is one of them days, slow and easy. I don't even know what to write today. Nothing much was going on, just enjoying the days that I don't have to go to work. I miss Jersey though a good friend from work. Well at work am always stressed out. I am just hoping by thursday I'll be good with what am doing. Help me God, because I am losing my own battle.

Conquer Fear with Faith

I've been checking a website and someone tried to chat with me. I was really bored so I chatted with this fella. He is a doctor and public speaker and he teaches about life coaching. He is nice enough to send me his works. While listening each word he said, it did hit me. I realize that I have too much worries and reflecting everything I cant deny that all my life I have been depressed.
I stressing out, anxious about the status about my job, my family just about everything. I know its normal to worry about things but worrying too much is not healthy.

I am setting a goal for myself that starting today. Worries wont cripple and stop me from being the best I can be. I am glad I was able to speak to that person. He inspired me with his words. There might be no chance of meeting him and thank him in person. But I know starting today I will change. I will stop all my worries I will set a goal and its only me living in a worry life.

I will not be scared to love again. I will not be scared to fail at work. I will accept failures as an opportunity to grow. Theres no downfall in this life I realize, its always having a chance to see
how life can be so beautiful if we will abolished the badness and nurture the good side of life.

I will stop complaining and keep asking WHY ME???? every time. I have to grow up am not the only who messed up. But theres always a chance for me to correct things. It is never too late.
I will do all the things that I enjoy most and nothing will be a hindrance.


As what the bible said: I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 3:14